Status updates

I just realized something.  I was talking to someone yesterday about how I don't like it when people have to broadcast every single thought that crosses their mind on facebook.  It's like, "Enough already!"  I don't need to know that you're going to the bathroom, going to the gym, or updates on the Mavericks every five seconds.  I also don't need married couples posting on each other's facebooks about how much they love each other.  Really.  You're married.  You should have each other's phone numbers.  Text one another.  I think it's fine occasionally but not everyday.  Not even every two days.  Everybody's had a baby recently so my news feed has been bombarded by baby pictures, which is fine because babies are cute.  Babies have that inexplicable cuteness factor that always draws you in.

So anyway, I realized that even though I don't put hourly status updates on facebook, I still put a lot of my personal thoughts on this blog.  I think it's okay though because it's not like a bunch of people read this on a daily basis like facebook.  Yeah, it's different.

I've been so tired.  I have presentations, exams, case studies, etc.  I feel like it's non-stop.  I want to get out.  I want to do something.  I want a life outside of pharmacy.  I really want to get involved with church again.  I want to have a close-knit group of friends like on Friends, people who really know me and love me.  I've had groups of friends before, but there was always something off.  They were all girl groups, and you know how girls can get.  And I feel like after I became saved, it's been even more difficult.  It's difficult enough to find some people you really get along with and can have fun with and have deep conversations with but adding on top of that a desire to be in community with other believers is tough.  I used to wonder how some people could be so close to others that were not believers, but now I realize that those people simply didn't care about who they were friends with just as long as they could have fun.

Well, I care.  I care much about having my closest friends be true believers.  My friend would always get upset about that, and I bet she still does.  She thinks people are people, and it shouldn't matter who you're friends with, but I know in my heart it does.  If I hang out with people who don't push me towards God, then I fall away.  It's simple.  I see it happen to other people.  There's no way to stay strong in your faith all by yourself.  You need God's help and the help of friends.  You especially need it when you're being a stubborn baby and don't want to go to God like me right now.  I think I'm still a little mad at Him.