I realized on my last blog post that I wrote "I haven't written here in a while" and to avoid writing that again, I'll just say that I need to start getting serious about writing on here. I do find writing very cathartic for me, and also, I just don't have a good memory. I don't know if I can actually keep up while on this rotation because this rotation is in a small town, I'm living in someone's duplex, and therefore I do not have my own internet. I guess it might be good to just try to write every week since I'll probably be a permanent fixture at Hasting's on the weekends to mooch off their free internet and connect to the rest of the world.
Since there's also no cable, I've been re-watching everything I have on my laptop. That includes the entire season 6 of How I Met Your Mother, a couple episodes of GLEE, Twilight, and the pilot episode of Vampire Diaries. In that episode, Elena and Stefan discover that they both like to write in journals. Stefan remarks that he doesn't have the best memory and that memories are important so that's why he writes in his journal. That to me is inspiring because those are the reasons why I need to keep up with this blog. I do want to maybe print it out in the future as my "journal" of my pharmacy school times or whatever. I do like the feel of having a real journal in my hand so I might just switch eventually, but for now, this is good.
Also, just watching all these episodes of HIMYM makes me wonder how this guy can recall the entire story of how he met his wife in so much detail. I'm sure no one really can unless they kept a diary. I do want to tell my children one day the whole story of my life, how I met their father, etc. I'm 25, and I think I need to realize that I need to live my life instead of acting like the 65-year-old that I think I am. This show makes me realize that the 20s and 30s of anyone's life are some of the craziest, most wonderful times in someone's life. I guess I'm having myself a little epiphany here. I'm having so many revelations lately. I will endeavor to write them all down as they come.
I also watched Eat, Pray, Love because I've been sick so I stayed in bed all day yesterday. I'm still not totally better, which is unusual, since I can get better once I just give myself a full day's rest. Anyway, I see why women like it now. The movie was good, and I found the message of it very pertinent and very inspiring to me. Liz was so unhappy with her life, and she decided to change it. She decided to search for whatever was missing in her life. I know that part of that was a search for God. She didn't find God and kept searching for God in all these different religions and cultures, which I didn't like, but I guess it was good that she realized He was missing in her life. I found writers to be deeply introspective, and there is a real possibility that her search doesn't end with this.
On the other hand, some of the things she discovered about how to live life are things that God told us to do. For example, forgiveness was a huge part of her story and is the reason why Jesus came to us. Forgiveness is so huge, and yet, we don't know how to do it. We don't know how to forgive others and forgive ourselves. That's something I have yet to fully embrace as well. Doesn't the mere mention of forgiveness bring a lightness to the heart?
I might read her book because I'm sure her book is much better and gives more insight into her story. I think I need some kind of change in my life. I can relate to how she felt at the beginning of the movie. I'm not totally unhappy but not fully joyful if that makes sense. Granted, I don't feel very close to God right now. I don't know why, but my heart is so hardened against Him. I'm feeling selfish and immature, and I don't know how all these other Christians manage to be so happy and mature. Maybe I'm just in one of those phases where I look for happiness in other things except God. It happens sometimes.
